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[ Haiga feels like a big, firm teddy bear. He's warm and there's something comforting about hugging him like this. For a moment, it felt that Hien was about to drift off into dreamland again. Dangerous. ]

... Huh? Why is it dangerous? Are you gonna slip?

[ He nuzzles against Haiga's face when he feels the nose touch and with their hug, Hien shifts Haiga more onto him so that he doesn't "slip"! Wow. How thoughtful. ]

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Because I like you and right now I'm on top of you.

[ damnit he likes it so much though. haiga allows himself one big teddy bear squeeze before he hauls hien up like a ragdoll, so they can hug in a more 'just bros, slightly homo' fashion. ]

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[ Hien has never thought about being desired like that, so the admittance is surreal to him that it's still taking its time to sink in as he's being hauled up like a ragdoll. Longcat, nya. Hien reflexively wraps his arms around Haiga to give him a hug, nuzzling his head against his neck. He upgrades the hug to 'totally homo' level right away. ]

I don't wanna deal with carnal stuff after waking up...

[ He whines. ]

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[ hiaga hugs his longcat bf close, but not too tight. this is his chance to bury his face in hien’s messy hair and he takes it. ]

Then don’t jump to carnal stuff. I’m not ready to talk about logistics or anything like that.

[ and trust that haiga wants to talk about all that and more - eventually. he’s just someone who needs to talk things out. ]

We don’t have time anyway.

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You're the one who started talking about dangerous stuff...

[ Hien huffs a bit and yawns again. ]

No time... because of dinner? Let's go.

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[ yeah but he feels wronged anyway. before he can say anything, hien surprises him with the yawn - so close! too close! - and he stiffens as a shivery pleasure travels up his spine. ]

Ah!

[ his heart is beating so loud in his ears and he squeezes hien tight in brief retaliation. ]

You are dangerous apparently.

[ stop comboing him with gay feelings. he detangles himself from hien with equal parts reluctance and relief. ]

I gave you around two hours, so we still have most of that.

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[ Hien genuinely has no idea why Haiga freaked out with the yawn. He doesn't know how dangerous that could be. It's just a yawn... it's fine. He can live without knowing. ]

Mmkay... lemme chug this coffee and we can go.

[ After becoming free from the hug, Hien maneuvers himself out of bed to drink his usual coffee at the usual place where Haiga puts the mug at the ready. This is the routine. This is the life. No matter the temperature of the drink, he drinks it all without hesitation. ]

I'm ready.

[ He still has immense messy bedhead, but it's not too different compared to his usual hairstyle anyway. ]

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[ haiga could have lived without knowing, too. his world could have been sweet kisses and comfy hugs and maybe spicy handholding. but now… now he knows the feel of hien’s hot breath against his skin and he feels just a little bullied.

by hien? by life?

it’s weird because he didn’t really see hien in a sexual light until now. sure, he wanted to touch him but that was a desire for closeness. chaste contact, really.

hien is actually kind of hot. damn. ]

I hope they’re serving ramen tonight. [ he stretches to settle himself before stepping out to the hall. not too worried about hien’s bedhead since they’re surrounded by boys. though since it’s on his mind: ] Oh, if you’re taking a shower after, let me blow-dry your hair.

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Ramen sounds good. I want spicy curry ramen... or spicy tonkotsu ramen...

[ He starts thinking about food instead of what just happened between the two of them. It doesn't look like Hien thinks much of it... danger? What danger? ]

Sure. You can blow-dry my hair. Today is such a busy day.

[ He says that offhandedly, despite not having done much today--he woke up, went to have lunch with Haiga, took a nap, going for dinner now, will take a shower, and then probably sleep again. This man is a lazy cat. ]

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[ hien’s brave for wanting spice before bed. haiga is definitely not that brave, nor does he have an iron stomach. ]

Haha, I figured you’d melt back into bed asap. But let’s not sleep with your hair wet - I don’t want you to get sick.

[ more a roommie request than a boyfriend request. ]

Busy in a good way?

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Mm. I don't usually like busy days, but these kinds of busy days are nice.

[ Because they're not actually busy at all and he can keep going at his own pace. God forbid this guy has an actual busy day. He's just perish. Probably. ]

I haven't gotten sick in maybe two decades, so I don't think wet hair can stop me.

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[ how does hien survive exam season… ]

That long, huh? I can’t remember the last time I got sick, but I’m probably average.

[ when he works too much, he just gets exhausted and sleeps a lot. usually when he has to cover for coworkers or around the holiday seasons when he picks up extra shifts. ]

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[ what exam season. cant stress if you dont acknowledge it!! He's a terrible student. ]

It just means that you take good care of yourself. Many people can't do that for some reason.

[ Hien yawns while turning his head away from Haiga and still walking. Walking, walking, walking... he is so hungry. ]

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[ guess haiga doesn’t have to worry about hien graduating first after all - ]

Where would you put yourself?

[ he touches hien’s arm absently to signal that they need to turn around the corner since hien is looking away. and through the open double doors, the cafeteria doesn’t look too full. ]

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[ Hien turns with the signal. ]

I can take care of myself. It's not like you saw me being terrible at that and finding the room a mess, right? If anything, I have to be self-sufficient.

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[ they haven’t talked about their childhoods all that much, so maybe this is one of those things. ]

You have to? [ because they’re adults now (ok… almost) or because of something else? ] The only mess is definitely your hair, though mine’s just as bad some days.

[ making his way to one of the lunch ladies to request the dish he wants. if his height is useful for anything, it’s to subtly divert people out of their way. ]

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[ Haiga's answer makes Hien smile a little. The only thing messy is his hair, huh? ]

Mm. I can't depend on others to do things for me, so I have to do them myself. It's... hard, depending on other people, when all I learned is that I shouldn't throughout my life.

[ He looks up at the menu. The ramen he wants is there. Thank god. ]

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… Damnit, I wanna touch you right now.

[ this is a part of liking someone, isn’t it? they say stuff and your fingers tingle with the need to just - reach out and touch. as though physical touch will connect your feelings with theirs… ]

Well, you have me now - as a friend and um, more - and we’re gonna be together for a long time, so even though - even though I know you’re capable of a lot, depend on me a little.

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... I'll try, but like I said, it won't come as easily.

[ Though Hien thinks he knows when to admit that he needs assistance from someone who's actually reliable. He thinks Haiga is just that, so he shouldn't have a problem.

However. His previous life experiences make him hesitate either way, regardless of what he's seen for himself. ]

Spicy tonkatsu ramen. I want hell level.

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[ hell level… ]

Uh, just normal shio for me, please. I’m the weaker one.

[ it’s a testament to what these ladies deal with that they don’t even bat an eye. one of them looks like she’s even taking it as a challenge to make hien’s dish at spicy as possible. ]

Will you tell me at some point? More about you.

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I don't mind talking about myself if you want to know. I don't usually find it too hard to talk about something if someone asks.

[ But only if they ask. Hien will stay quiet about it otherwise. Other than that, he waits for the lunch ladies to make his food. No matter how spicy it is, Hien will eat it without batting an eye. ]

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I wanna know. Eventually I wanna know more about you than anyone else.

[ he hopes that doesn’t come off as too unhinged or possessive. it’s not really what he means. ]

How about that seat in the corner?

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[ Luckily, Hien doesn't see it as anything but simple curiosity, which he finds normal. He nods when Haiga suggests the seat in the corner over there and walks over to it to sit. ]

Do you have a question now?

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[ urk, decision paralysis. it’s all over his face as he sits down. he wants to ask so many things that he doesn’t know where to start - ]

… Birthday?

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August 20.

[ He says without hesitation. ]

You?