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No, I don’t want us to stay that way either. I really do mean that I don’t want us to change much - as in how we interact. But of course, I want to kiss you or be closer to you.

[ back up, he’s getting things all jumbled. ]

We get along, I want to keep getting along. We talk and I want to talk about more things. We’re comfortable together and I want - [ he cuts off. then starts again: ] I want what we have but more. At our own pace.

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... Yeah.

[ Hien keeps his eyes on the road as he drives. ]

That's what I mean. It's a small change, but it's a change nevertheless. I also think what we have is really comfortable.

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Right!

[ he sighs with relief. they seem to be on the same page! oh but he’s gotta add: ]

You said you don’t want me to see you pissed off, but I kinda hope I do.

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[ Hien stays quiet for a while as he continues to drive with his eyes on the road. ]

... Why? Is that the "I want to see every side of you" thing? Because I think you'd be better off without seeing that sort of thing from me.

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[ which, yeah, he does wanna see all sides of hien. ]

It’s not good to hold stuff in, so if you’re upset I want you to show it. If it’s something I did, I’d like to know… but I also want you to know my feelings won’t change? And be comfortable to just… feel things around me. Something like that.

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Well... that's the thing. I don't really get upset in the first place.

[ He'll get annoyed sometimes, but never upset. ]

And you know how I am.

[ "Chill senpai" or something. ]

I'm already comfortable around you.

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Yep, my favorite super cool, super chill senpai.

[ he doesn’t push it. it’s enough that he’s laid out his feelings plainly for hien to see. and if it ever happens in the future, then it’ll happen and hien will already know and they’ll be ok together. ideally. ]

Though… um… I have a request. Could you call me “Yuki” from now on?

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[ whomst ]

Sure. I'll do just that, Yuki.

[ Hien parks the car into the space well. Nothing out of alignment. He says that casually like he does with everything else. ]

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[ HIS FAVORITE SUPER CHILL SUPER COOL SENPAI

but he glows like a lightbulb when hien (his!! boyfriend??) says his (hien’s!! boyfriend??) name for the first time. today has been the best day ever, maybe. memorable in the same way he’ll always remember the first day they met - and the way they met with hien dead on arrival. ]

Thanks for driving us! [ and for the date. and for saying yes to basically everything. wait - ] If I keep asking for things, are you going to keep saying yes?

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That depends on what you're asking for.

[ Though Haiga is likely to understand that Hien says yes to everything he asks for is because he probably doesn't mind. ]

Why? You got a big one to ask of me now?

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What do you consider big?

[ unbuckling his seatbelt to get out, though he does back in lean in to say: ]

I’ll ask when we’re inside.

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[ Hien pauses when Haiga leans in, blinking. ]

... Alright. It's just anything that I can't do.

[ He unbuckles his own seat belt and gets out of the car. ]

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I dunno if I’ll ever have anything like that in mind? Huh…

[ as they walk together back to their room, everything’s like usual. haiga even nods or waves to some of the other students he knows. ]

If something’s too heavy for you to lift, I’m obviously ok with handling it.

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But would you ask me to lift something heavy?

[ Hien doesn't wave at other people, only yawning while covering his mouth with a hand. They arrive in front of their room and Hien unlocks the door. Home sweet home. Or room. They only ate lunch, but Hien feels like flopping on his bed.


He does that anyway. ]

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Haha, you know me.

[ true, he wouldn’t! he just grins at hien and doesn’t refute him. when his (!!) boyfriend (!!!) flops onto the bed, that leaves haiga to lock their door. ]

Gonna nap?

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Mm.

[ Hien turns his head to look at Haiga, watching him as he locks the door. ]

But you wanted to say something once we got to our room. What was it?

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[ he kneels next to hien’s bed. hien can nap; he obviously doesn’t mind. ]

Yeah. Can we hug when you wake up? That’s it.

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Sure.

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That's it? You also know how I am when waking up, so good luck.

[ says the guy who needs to work harder in getting the heck up ]

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[ he laughs. ]

How you are when you wake up is perfect.

[ and he means it. he stands and walks backwards toward his own bed. ]

Sleep well.

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Mm.

[ With that, he quickly falls asleep. If sleeping was an Olympic sport, Hien could be a serious contestant with how deeply he sleeps within a minute.

The nap ends up being 5 hours until it's dinner time. This guy could be a cat with a human body with how much he sleeps and eats in a day. ]

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[ and this guy would wave team hien banners

while hien sleeps, haiga makes an attempt at studying. what he actually does instead is think about hien, sneak glances at hien, and reread the same paragraphs a dozen times when he makes any headway at all before getting caught up in his own head again. truly his brain is only good at focusing on one thing.

it takes him until the last hour before dinner to settle into his reading. his phone lights up with a silent reminder: cafeteria closes in two hours. which gives him just enough time to wake hien. he does so with the required ritual offering: coffee and hien’s name called several times in a row. ]

Hien. Hieeen. Dinner time.

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[ The coffee's effectiveness seems to differ, but statistics say that he needs at least five cups to really get the day started. One? He can chug along until he starts rolling.

He stirs when he hears Haiga's voice, slowly blinking and yawning. ]

Mm... morning, Yuki.

[ It is most definitely not morning. ]

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[ cupid’s arrow through the heart that hien remembered to use his name first thing… wow… he likes hien so much…

but aside from waking hien up, haiga’s also come to collect. ]

G’morning, Hien. [ it can be morning if that’s what hien wants. it can be anything. ] Arms out, please.

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[ Hien holds his arms out, waiting for Haiga to come closer so that he can hug him while still lying down on his back. ]

Like this...?

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[ like that?! ]

At least sit up -

[ but that’s probably asking too much of a hien that’s just awoken. ugh ok… he leans down for the hug because he still wants it bad. he wonders how his bigger body feels to hien - if he’s comfortable, if haiga feels good to hold. because hien certainly does, even at this awkward angle. overly warm and malleable. sleep-soft and… ]

You smell good. [ like comfort, like a nap that’s been baked in dreams. his nose brushes the fine hair curled under hien’s ear. ] This angle’s pretty dangerous though.