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[ he can tell he’s being teased (at least a little), but hien’s hand in his hair feels good, so he closes his eyes and lets himself enjoy it. ]

First off: it’s a lot because it’s you. And even if it wasn’t, all the little things build up, too.

[ if he’s been happy since day one, then his happiness stock is pretty high. ]

But… I’m glad that you’re glad.

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Yeah?

[ Hien finally starts driving the car back to the dorms. Away they go! ]

I'm not really good at this dating thing though. So you might have to lead me.

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[ haiga lead? uh ok ]

Me? I can try but you’ll have to hold my hand probably. Maybe be my soundboard.

[ THERE WILL BE A LOT OF TALKING IT OUT. ideally he’d like for them to encourage each other and get to where they need to go together, but he’s determined enough. ]

Wait, am I… your first serious boyfriend?

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Yeah. I never dated.

[ Yet he casually accepts Haiga anyway. ]

Never had a reason to. Never really liked anyone like that yet. I'm hoping to see if it changes with you.

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[ he glances at the side of hien's face. that's surprising, both that hien's never dated and has never liked anyone like that. and for some reason, he's decided to try with haiga of all people? haiga's nothing special. ]

Changes... Well, Hien, honestly? I wasn't looking to change much about us. I like how we are already, so...

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If you really liked how we were, you wouldn't have confessed.

[ Hien isn't saying this to bully him. It's just one of his moments of casual bluntness that doesn't mean anything other than the words spoken. ]

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No, I don’t want us to stay that way either. I really do mean that I don’t want us to change much - as in how we interact. But of course, I want to kiss you or be closer to you.

[ back up, he’s getting things all jumbled. ]

We get along, I want to keep getting along. We talk and I want to talk about more things. We’re comfortable together and I want - [ he cuts off. then starts again: ] I want what we have but more. At our own pace.

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... Yeah.

[ Hien keeps his eyes on the road as he drives. ]

That's what I mean. It's a small change, but it's a change nevertheless. I also think what we have is really comfortable.

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Right!

[ he sighs with relief. they seem to be on the same page! oh but he’s gotta add: ]

You said you don’t want me to see you pissed off, but I kinda hope I do.

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[ Hien stays quiet for a while as he continues to drive with his eyes on the road. ]

... Why? Is that the "I want to see every side of you" thing? Because I think you'd be better off without seeing that sort of thing from me.

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[ which, yeah, he does wanna see all sides of hien. ]

It’s not good to hold stuff in, so if you’re upset I want you to show it. If it’s something I did, I’d like to know… but I also want you to know my feelings won’t change? And be comfortable to just… feel things around me. Something like that.

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Well... that's the thing. I don't really get upset in the first place.

[ He'll get annoyed sometimes, but never upset. ]

And you know how I am.

[ "Chill senpai" or something. ]

I'm already comfortable around you.

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Yep, my favorite super cool, super chill senpai.

[ he doesn’t push it. it’s enough that he’s laid out his feelings plainly for hien to see. and if it ever happens in the future, then it’ll happen and hien will already know and they’ll be ok together. ideally. ]

Though… um… I have a request. Could you call me “Yuki” from now on?

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[ whomst ]

Sure. I'll do just that, Yuki.

[ Hien parks the car into the space well. Nothing out of alignment. He says that casually like he does with everything else. ]

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[ HIS FAVORITE SUPER CHILL SUPER COOL SENPAI

but he glows like a lightbulb when hien (his!! boyfriend??) says his (hien’s!! boyfriend??) name for the first time. today has been the best day ever, maybe. memorable in the same way he’ll always remember the first day they met - and the way they met with hien dead on arrival. ]

Thanks for driving us! [ and for the date. and for saying yes to basically everything. wait - ] If I keep asking for things, are you going to keep saying yes?

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That depends on what you're asking for.

[ Though Haiga is likely to understand that Hien says yes to everything he asks for is because he probably doesn't mind. ]

Why? You got a big one to ask of me now?

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What do you consider big?

[ unbuckling his seatbelt to get out, though he does back in lean in to say: ]

I’ll ask when we’re inside.

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[ Hien pauses when Haiga leans in, blinking. ]

... Alright. It's just anything that I can't do.

[ He unbuckles his own seat belt and gets out of the car. ]

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I dunno if I’ll ever have anything like that in mind? Huh…

[ as they walk together back to their room, everything’s like usual. haiga even nods or waves to some of the other students he knows. ]

If something’s too heavy for you to lift, I’m obviously ok with handling it.

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But would you ask me to lift something heavy?

[ Hien doesn't wave at other people, only yawning while covering his mouth with a hand. They arrive in front of their room and Hien unlocks the door. Home sweet home. Or room. They only ate lunch, but Hien feels like flopping on his bed.


He does that anyway. ]

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Haha, you know me.

[ true, he wouldn’t! he just grins at hien and doesn’t refute him. when his (!!) boyfriend (!!!) flops onto the bed, that leaves haiga to lock their door. ]

Gonna nap?

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Mm.

[ Hien turns his head to look at Haiga, watching him as he locks the door. ]

But you wanted to say something once we got to our room. What was it?

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[ he kneels next to hien’s bed. hien can nap; he obviously doesn’t mind. ]

Yeah. Can we hug when you wake up? That’s it.

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Sure.

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That's it? You also know how I am when waking up, so good luck.

[ says the guy who needs to work harder in getting the heck up ]

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[ he laughs. ]

How you are when you wake up is perfect.

[ and he means it. he stands and walks backwards toward his own bed. ]

Sleep well.